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The Beauty in Balance

Posted on by ashleymw88

Those of you that follow me on facebook probably had your newsfeed full of pictures from the commercial I participated in ( i couldn’t help it, I was so happy!!) . I never went into more detail about what the commercial was geared towards because it would of been too much to write on FB and I wanted our  FB followers and blog followers to feel my excitement!!!!!

Let’s Begin!

I have not been shy at all about sharing my struggles with PCOS. As much as there were struggles, there were gains and progress to a healthier me along the process. My former posts on my journey through PCOS described how I did my own research and began to regulate a lot of things on my own, lost weight etc. Although things did get better , there became a point in my journey that was stagnate. I was having trouble getting to my goal weight and my hormones felt very off! It’s hard to explain the feeling because words don’t give justice to all of what you’re experiencing in your body! Some days I just felt so out of touch with the present, it was hard to concentrate, my moods were up and down…. PCOS has much more of an affect on your body other than dealing with infertility issues, there’s more parts about the condition that can truly keep you down. ( I plan to do more advocacy and awareness on PCOS so look out for a few videos coming out about it in the near future).

With this being the case, I kept telling my husband ,” I need to find something else to help. I hate feeling this way!’ That’s when I found the BeBalanced Centers of Lancaster! (Seriously one of the biggest blessings to enter my life!) I had driven past this place from time to time but never went inside. A coworker of mines started one of their programs and said that I should try coming to the Center because they could possibly help me with my PCOS since they focus on helping women balance out their hormones. Well after I heard that, I went right to the BeBalanced Center and said “I need to set up a meeting and talk to someone and get help for my PCOS symptoms”. They were very welcoming and the girl I first spoke to when I walked through those doors said she also had PCOS and many of the products there helped her a lot! I literally wanted to hug this girl!!! You never know how much you want to get well until you experience things that don’t make you feel well at all. Health is such an important part of life and I was at my breaking point and prayed that this program would work for me.

I went for my first appointment and said to the lady ” I just want to feel better, can you help me with that?” We went right in to discussing the plan that I would be on that does help you loose weight in a healthy way while taking supplements that will help to regulate my hormones at the same time. I said “sign me up!! Oh wait..how much is this?” LOL. I’m not going to lie, for the budget we had at the time, it was somewhat out of our price range but I had a really good feeling that this would help me. I was juggling between, spend the money or feel like crap the rest of your life…uhhh… I will just spend the money! That decision didn’t go without having a conversation with my husband first and seeing his thoughts and I just thank God for him because he just said “if you really feel like this will help you then lets budget it in and make it happen!” I was so thankful!

So I started the plan and the first couple of days were a little  rough because your body has to adjust to new and better habits. Within the time frame of me being on the plan, I lost 14 pounds AND I FELT SO MUCH BETTER!!!!! My hormones were finally regulated and I just truly felt good. I thank God often from healing me from those symptoms and sending BeBalnced as a resource to help me in that as well. I would say after a month or two of finishing the plan…we found out about our little bun in the oven. The joy of feeling better must of flowed to other areas as well! haha!

I would just encourage women who are dealing with hormonal imbalances to seriously consider checking  out BeBalanced. Even though it was expensive, I would spend the money again to feel as good as I do now! It was SOOOO worth it! And you get what you pay for.  No need in complaining about something, find a solution to it. For me this will forever be a changing point in my PCOS journey.

With all of these great things that came out of me being part of the program, I was asked to participate in one of their commercials that will be launching this fall. When you have something good, you have to spread the news about it!! I met other women on the set that had their lives changed from doing  the plan and we were all inspired by each persons story! There were stories from women dealing with menopause issues  to needing help to get rid of chronic headaches ,etc. It is amazing what regulating  your hormones and dropping weight can do to help many issues in our bodies. Ladies, you owe it to yourself to fell better! Consult your doctor if you want ( personally I didn’t but that’s just my personal story) , research the program and then make a decision on what would work best for you. Everyone’s journey is different but I am so glad Bebalanced came along my path and I didn’t miss out on this opportunity to find the beauty in balance 🙂

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Walking in Motherhood

Posted on by ashleymw88

This first trimester has been a beautiful journey  of  extreme fatigue, soreness and hunger like you wouldn’t believe!! But its so beautiful to my husband and I because we looked forward to these days of a growing stomach with life blossoming within my womb.

I must say….moms around the world, do you know how blessed you are? Regardless if your child is growing in your womb, or in your heart through adoption or through the love you show to other parent less children. Moms, you are so dear and children, you are such a blessing.

(Side note : Doesn’t mean those blessings will be perfect angels or easy but they are still blessings, speaking from one who has a bunch of adopted teenage daughters, whooo, my Lord ….. love them, haha. 🙂

It’s the first time we are seeing our baby on the ultrasound screen. The heart is pumping and pumping and the doctor says ” your baby’s heartbeat is beautiful “. Oh my word! We could of stared at that screen for hours! That’s a baby, and its really growing inside of me?!!

Such a miracle. We are just in awe.

A sweet Christmas present is coming December 2015 🙂

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The Surprise Blessing

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It was an early Tuesday morning , prob around 3 am. I had missed multiple days for my period to start and I said okay I’m going to take a pregnancy test. Paced around a few because I was excited and nervous. I had similar situations where I was a few days late and then I would take a PT and see a big fat negative. That level of disappointment is hard to shrug off some days but this time, I felt things would be different. “Here I go, test time…try not to peak… Omg, what does it say!?…it says ……….negative?? What? I really thought this time was different”.

I tried to hold back my tears.

I crawled back in bed and layed next to my husband quietly but he knew something was wrong and asked if I was okay. Well, here come the tears. I told him the test was negative…..again. This is what I shared with him with tears coming down my face,  ” I have come to the point of accepting  we may never conceive and I’m okay with that but I just feel like if I’m not going to conceive , God, at least let my body work! Let me get my period on time! None of this lateness that builds up my hope and then I’m disappointed . I feel so frustrated. “. My husband was so empathetic and spoke to me and held me in his arms til I was finished crying.

Later that morning, I decided I would worship and pray as I  drove to work. I decided I  would declare positive things on my life and marriage and claim that we would be parents in Gods timing.

Over the years  My husbands and I desire to conceive and adopt were strong so we asked God for both. We gave God the desires of our heart and asked for his will.

Let’s be honest, sometimes waiting on Gods will can be frustrating and feel like a roller coaster but his plans are perfect so although there were tough seasons we still prayed that prayer.

There were times I felt bitter and hopeless but God didn’t let me stay there. He reminded me of his faithfulness and even sent others to speak words of encouragement to my husband and I. God is so loving and thoughtful to do those things.

One of the things that came to mind is God speaking to me probably two weeks prior. I heard him tell me I would conceive (which i thought would be months ahead) and even what the Gender was :). So I quickly wrote it down in my journal. Later that night I expressed this to my husband and I told him I was nervous. Like he always does, he was calming my fears. “If this is what God has for us,he will provide, we will be okay. This is something we desired, why are you nervous? don’t be nervous”. ( I am so thankful for my husband.)

I think knowing all the transition we had coming up with moving and new jobs made me nervous.

Later in the week I met with my lineage of love group and for prayer requests I asked them to pray for me because for some reason I felt that mother hood and ministry was coming very soon and I was nervous. (Haha! well doesn’t God have a sense of humor).

After all of that worship and proclamation in the car something just felt different. I felt like I still was supposed to take another test. My husband and I went to the store later that night and I got an early pregnancy test that had three test in the box. “OK Lord, please”.

I went in our house and went straight to the bathroom, “mmm, OK..wait for it, wait for it….wait the first line is coming up … A SECOND LINE…OMG” !!!! I call for my husband “Jason , Jason’!!! Come over here!”  He was cooking so he’s like “no come in here” haha. I’m like “noooo you really need to come see this come over here”. He walks to the bathroom. I said “you’re going to be a DAD!! I’m pregnant”!! He was like “Really!!!??? Take another one”. The journey of multiple negative tests affects both the husband and wife. So needless to say in all I probably took 7 pregnancy tests within that week haha!!! I couldn’t see that positive come up enough. I love the clear blue ones because it specifically says PREGNANT.

We were so excited!! We called our parents right away we couldn’t wait!

So why the negative pregnancy test earlier  that morning? I don’t know. Sometimes I feel like it was a test to see if I would still praise God despite a disappointment. Although I don’t pass every test,  I was happy to pass this test and God blessed us so!!

Trusting God during the wait is hard but just keep reminding yourself his timing and  plan are perfect.

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