Posted in MISSIONS

Now What?

Did I really just quit my job? Yup! …Okay God now what? We started sharing our decision with those close to us . You should see peoples eyes light up. ” you quit your job, but don’t have another one lined yet?” and our response, “nope, we are just trusting what God told us to do.”

I said this very prayer, ” God you now have many eyes on our situation , I need you to come through big now. ”

I had no idea what I was asking for , LOL, seriously.

In the midst of all of this God started stirring my heart to an issue going on in the world that I was starting to learn more about. The issue of Sex Trafficking in America. The more I learned, the angrier I got. A holy anger, like this cannot happen! I was upset, “God why is this happening? Please free these victims!” I felt so sad for the victims. I felt sick. I felt every emotion possible.

I started to think of my own life and how when I was younger and looking for love in the wrong places, God heard the prayers of my parents because I put myself in many dangerous situations that I could have been taken and someone could have put me in a place where I was also a victim to this horrible mess. But I wasn’t and I needed to do something about those that were.

I asked God to show me what I could do with this passion to see these victims set free. Our God is one that cares about justice  in this world. God gives us free will but some people don’t make the right decisions with that free will. There are people out there that want to enslave people and make people loose all their dignity and thats just WRONG! I believe there are some issues that we are just to pray about and others that we are suppose to be an active participant in speaking up and protecting the voiceless. I knew God was calling me to do more than just pray about this issue.

It was time to get to work to bring more awareness to this issue and help to those being held captive. I didn’t know with which organization or when but I knew  it would happen.

I reached out to multiple organizations and just prayed God would open up the right door.

Who knew that he would have a better door for me to go through than the ones I was knocking on. :).

This Song Sums up the Call God was giving to me and my husband.

Posted in MISSIONS

Mission Field

After coming back from my mission trip , I really was thinking about how I could apply what I learned and felt in Haiti back to my community in PA.

I know I came back with greater faith, a new lens and new perspective on my daily life. I once complained about things that I dare not complain about now. More than anything I wanted to make a greater impact for Christ.

I stayed very active in my church, active in my community, looked at my work differently, etc….. and then something started to happen. I felt like God was about to start shifting some things.

Words like preparation, transition, influence …..were starting to circulate in my heart and spirit.

I was starting to feel an unease and restless, like there was more that I was being called to do.

I prayed and prayed and God spoke.

I felt God telling me that it was time to transition from job. I prayed that God would prepare my husbands heart as I revealed this news to him. I wrote down pros and cons to leaving and just shared my heart and what God was saying.

We prayed about it that week and then were in agreement that it was time to move forward. That next Monday I resigned. Due to having a higher position I gave a two months notice in order for there to be a smooth transition.

I had speaking engagements that were to come later in the year and I felt God telling me to cancel them. So I did.

It felt like God was clearing the room for something. Something big. Our  job was to be obedient and have faith and God would do the rest.

Mission = Faith.

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Posted in ADOPTION

Baby Girl ….

Jason and I are very open to everyone about our adoption. We believe it is a blessing that we are being chosen for this journey although it’s not always easy we know this is a beautiful part of our story in becoming parents. Since we have chosen to do a domestic adoption ( our child could come from any part of the U.S.) we know that there is a  possibility that our birth mom could pick us outside of being connected to our adoption agency.

Well….a few months ago we were faced with that possibility. A friend of mines told me about a baby girl who would be in need of housing within a few weeks  and she felt that my husband and I would be perfect for this little girl. The birth parents were, unfortunately, drug addicts and children and youth had to get involved and the baby was taken from their care. At this point the baby was in the care of her God Mother , which was a safe place for the baby to be but after a number of weeks the God Mom wasn’t sure if she would be able to keep her due to her already having a child of her own to take care of.

At this point you can imagine the many thoughts going through my mind, “is this really happening?” “”are we going to have our baby in the matter of weeks” “what will Jason say?” “we have to buy baby furniture” , etc

So I told my friend that I would have to talk to my husband and get back to her. When I spoke with Jason, we were in total agreement instantly that we would take this baby in and that we wouldn’t allow her to go to foster care.

I told my friend about our decision and she text us the cutest picture of this little baby girl wrapped up in a baby blanket.

We started to grow attached to this little one we only knew through a picture. We began to pray that if this was our baby that God would reveal that to us clearly.

We were due to visit the baby and God Mom and talk about what the future may hold. ……. That meeting never happened.

Not many more days went by before I was starting to get this feeling that this baby was not going to be ours.

I expressed this to my husband and told him that we should start to guard our hearts because this what I was starting to feel.

It wasn’t much longer that after we had that conversation that my friend was telling me that the God Mother was starting to get attached to the baby and she was making the decision to take the baby in permanently.

Ouch…it stung a little. It was a hard moment for Jason too. I knew what I was sensing but to actually hear it was a little hard. Although this was the case, I was happy the baby was at least in a good home.

( deep breath) These are the honest roller coaster moments that happens when going through this journey.

I believe that there may be similar situations that come up like this one but in the end God will place us face to face with the child we will know without a doubt is ours and the right doors will then be open for this child to be in our home.

Faith. We just have to keep believing

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Posted in ADOPTION

A Financial Update to Our Supporters :)

Thank you again to our wonderful supporters! Sorry we didn’t get a chance to update everyone earlier but since our last fundraiser we had $2,172.29 in donations and our contribution as well to go towards our adoption. We have about $ 7,000 more dollars to raise to get to our last homestudy interview which is where they come to see our place to make sure there is room for the baby. Thank you again for your support and prayers. We know God will continue to help us through this journey. Please stay connected to our blog for any other updates. Ashley & Jason