Month: November 2014

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Can’t wait to be over this hump

Posted on by ashleymw88

So we are and have been in the home study process for quite sometime now. What many don’t realize is that the home study consists of more than just a person coming to look at your home. We have to read books, fill out more paperwork, get physicals, have interviews, have references contacted etc and then pay  $13,000.00 before the home study is complete. We originally thought that the home study would be complete after $3,000.00 but we misread that number and it was clarified today. ( breathe in and out, stay calm). Man, that’s a lot of money!! This is why we have to go back to God daily to gain strength and to trust him that this will come together. The reason why this is so important to get through this part of the process is because it takes a while for the written approval to come in but once we are approved for the home study then we can start our family portal so we can be picked for placement. We would finally be able to meet our birth mom !! How exciting is that!! ?? So exciting to us but we have to get the funds first to make it happen. Here is our most recent fundraiser that we have coming up! Spread the Word 🙂

It will be with Chick-fil-a in Lancaster, PA. You can go there ( December 8th -13th) and present this flyer by paper or on your phone and let them know that you are supporting the “Jason & Ashley Wilson Adoption Fundraiser” and a percentage of your meal cost will go to our adoption acct. We will have our rally night there on December 11th from 5-7pm and would love to have everyone stop by and asks us any questions and also sign a book we will have to show our baby when they get a little older how many people helped to bring him or her home to their forever family 🙂

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God’s Promise

Posted on by ashleymw88

Jeremiah 29:11 never gets old , “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” ( NIV) .

The process of adoption is somewhat of a roller coaster because we can’t wait to meet our baby but there are so many steps in between until we meet them. It never fails though , when I am having a day where I feel discouraged, someone will send me a word of encouragement concerning our adoption or a donation will be in the mailbox and God continues to show himself to us and lets us know that we are on the right path and to keep persevering.

Our lives are in his hands and I just have to believe that $30,000 is just a number and that the greatest blessing is beyond that amount. I mean look at the price God paid for us , he gave his only son to die on the cross for you and me! Not trying to be super spiritual but that is deep! It just makes it more real to me that anything good will cost, there will be sacrifice but it will be worth it.

I kept feeling like God was telling us to start getting the baby room ready.

The room that has been set aside to be our baby room was already starting to get cluttered with stuff. Boxes, etc. So since I kept feeling that I told Jason and we cleared out the baby room, got an accent wall painted and added a few baby books, got a nursery check list and just gazed around the room. Like this no longer looks like an office or a room just for extra “stuff” this is a room that we are preparing for our baby.

This is an extra step in the faith walk we are in, waiting really equals preparation. You have to prepare for what God is going to give you not just sit around and do nothing. Every day I walk past the room I feel that much more encouraged. I often think ” our babys coming soon, our baby is coming soon, I know it.” Soon may look different time wise to all of us but I am holding on to the promise God has over our lives to parent.

Jason and I pray in that room often. It will be a spirit filled room for our baby that’s for sure! haha!

Here are some pictures of the beginning stages of our nursery:

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The Times of Grieving

Posted on by ashleymw88

In the midst of being excited about a new journey that will consist of God blessing us with a child through adoption there is still a season of grief that I have experienced about not being able to conceive. The tricky thing about having PCOS is that some day it “may” magically happen that I conceive but there is a chance that I will never conceive so what truth does one lean on? I know that God has called us to adoption so I don’t dwell much on conceiving but there are those times when in conversation about my adoption and PCOS that  I start to get teary eyed at the fact that Jason and I may never know what our biological child looks like. What would their personality be like? Would they be short or tall? Would they have more of his personality or mines? I may never know and quite honestly that hurts. Every time I hear about a child being hurt or killed because of the negligence of someone else , its like really? Yet, there are those of us that would love to have children but were not gifted with that? Why, God, Why?

My husband and I went to a marriage conference not too long ago called “I Still Do” and at the end you get to renew your vows which we did and I just fell in his arms crying. I felt like the tears could continue to flow into the next day. You remember the part of your vows that says , “through thick or thin, for better or worse” , well when the worst actually hits, it tests your marriage and my husband has been nothing less than supportive through it all. I love him for that and the vows we said that day meant more to me than the ones we said on the day we got married because we were getting through this storm together.

As much as my flesh would want to be wrapped up in the “why?” , God has sent an overwhelming peace over me to encourage me that everything will be okay. He is big enough to handle my hurt and bless me way beyond I could ever imagine. This little guy or little girl is meant to be in our forever family and Jason and I are meant to be their parents.